Friday, May 05, 2006 ++

REAL REAL kl trip.

ok i shall finish everything in this entry.
I HOPE.
hahaha.
later i talk alot of crap again.
anyway i just read my last entry and i laughed.
so dumb lah. write halfway den have to go. lol.

ok so i stopped at when i just reach there.
ya the feeling is there that is so strong.
im so glad again.
everything improved alot there according to most of them.
last time they sleep on the floor but of cos with sleeping bag.
and the aircon was super strong that its too cold to slp.
this time, they used those cushions that pple keel on while chanting,
and filled the whole sleeping area with it.
at least makes it softer and more comfortable to slp on.
and the aircon has acceptable temp, no need sleeping bag as blanket also can.
haha.
aiya everything is just so wonderful there.
so i slp at around 2am++ to 6am.
but i alr slept for like 4hrs on the way to kl.
so not very exhausted.
besides, the earlier i wake up, the less pple there are in the toilet.
HAHAHA. so kiasu.
eh no lor. if not really alot of pple.

den after cleaning up, i walking around like wondering ghost again.
cos it was still so early, that they haven on the hall's lights.
haha. and i met huiru shifu.
she's so nice.
she asked me if i had slept well.
HAHA. so nice!

so at around 7 we had our breakfast.
everybody has their own utensil.
same one somemore.
all bought it from temple.
haha. METAL bowl.
with METAL chopstick and spoon.
eh the food is so NICE.
the most delicious and ''safe'' vegetarian food found.
HAHA.
we had porridge for breakfast.
actually i also dunno whats in the porridge lah.
got bean but pea like thingy.
and alot of other things lah.
tase really good know.
plus they have extra side dishes.
haiyoo.. cannot forget. its so delicious lah.

ba guan sai starts at 8.30am i think?
i wore hai qing.
err haiqing is those black long clothes buddhist wear during fahui.
so irritating lah. so short.
i bought it when i was pri6 i think.
and i demand a new haiqing.
but until now my dad haven but when i ask him to but it at kl.
nvm. i think i'll get it still. lol.

at first i sit in the middle den can see the stage clearly,
how i know the volunteers there shift me to the front, but the side!
because all pple with haiqing must stand infront, den those without stand behind.

den we started chanting.
ohh...
i missed it so much can.
those tunes and blah blah.
so long nvr chant.
den i keep stepping on my haiqing when i stand up after bowing.
lucky nvr tripped. LOL.

for our fahui, we finish chanting one part, den we'll stop,
and shifu will talk.
she'll tell us stories, jokes, and teach values. sometimes also talk abt health.
because shifu had found out from research that by laughing and staying happy can keep us healthy.
actually my shifu they all, all very health-c0nscious.
alot things cannot eat cos its unhealthy.
so i dun drink coffee, and i try to avoid what she say its unhealthy. haha,
i TRY.
she also teach us some exercises that works your whole body.
aiya alot of things lah.
actually i think if i do everything she teach,
i'll be very healthy u know.
hmmmm......... lol.
see first lah.
if i wanna do den i must wake up like 5am?
almost like impossible.
ahh. see first lah.

just as i was dunno doing what,
i heard shifu saying
'' dun find joy in other pple's sorrow.''
den i suddenly rmb,
I ALWAYS LIKE TO PRANK AND LAUGH AT PPLE.
so i was like oh no.
haha!
so!
i have decided not to prank pple anymore.
and i TRY MY BEST not to laugh at ppls IF that person doesn't know im laughing at him
HAHAHAHA.

actually shifu told us quite alot of stories.
she also told us abt her life,
as on her story on how she will chujia.
last time her family also like not very happy with her keep going temple.
not completely dun like her to go temple.
but she say they were happy that she go and learn values and become a buddhist.
but at the same time they scare she will go chujia.
how funny.

her story began with she fell sick one day.
she went to see alot of doctor but nobody can cure her.
for dunno what reason, she met this aunty while she go for her meal.
den the aunty tell her her illness is called the ''ye zhang bing'',
which also means she's ill becos of all her sins.
and she encourages shifu to chant this sutra called ''dizang jing''
dizang jing talks abt karma retribution and how dizapusa went to save lives.
at his moment, shifu was wondering how can there be somebody so great like dizang pusat,
who sacrifices everything to help beings,
and to have such great compassioned will to swear to save ALL lives out of hell before he becomes a buddha.
this means as long as there is a single soul suffering in hell, he can nvr become a buddha no matter how qualified he is.
by chanting dizang jing can help and lessen one's sin.
but of cos not so simple just like that.
it depends. and u have to believe.

slowly day by day,
shifu recovered.
she was den encouraged to have vegetarian.
soon after, she was brought to this temple.
that person that encourages her and teach her all this is a volunteer in the dizang temple.
everything was very new to her, she doesn't know anything.
once, the temple has a a fahui of the buddha of medicine's sutra (yao shi jing)
due to some reason at home, she wasnt allowed to go.
but even though he body was not in temple, her mind was totally there.
she kept thinking abt it.
and when she was sleeping, she dreamt of herself chanting this mantra that she dun know.
by chance after that dream,
she heard the same mantra as in her dream.
when she went to find out what is that,
she found out that it is actually the buddha of medicine's mantra.
how shocking huh...?
thats how shifu learn this mantra.
haha. well, its all fate i can say.

dangjia shifu say she had a hard time finding enshi that time
becos enshi is always not around.
den one day she volunteered to help out at temple to decorate the flower for display.
enshi just came from some places.
she greeted enshi and enshi asked her
'' children, u wanna chujia is it?''
HAHAHA.
at that moment, shifu stunned for awhile.
she says that she was so nervous, her heart almost pop out.
lol. so funny lah.
because she had nvr tell anybody abt she wanting to chujia,
and she only have this thought LAST NIGHT.
lol. its just last night know.
isn't this what we always call? f.a.t.e.
it also belongs to the karma process.
u get what u sow.
haha.
enshi den told her to not rush, let things takes place naturally.
and this how she chujia.

and i realise if i blog all the stories,
it would be damn LONG.
haha. so i shall just say the brief outline of what i did there.
at least i try to give a brief one. haha!

so as she tell us story and teach us from her stories,
i really learn alot.
i realise i start to understand more now.
i feel. and go indepth.
last time pple tells me,
there are times in temple when i'll feel guilty, sinful and wanna repent.
at these times, u'll cry. u'll cry very naturally.
at that time, i asked myself why pple will feel this way but i wun huh?
i NEVER felt like crying before,
no matter how and what.
well, i think i was just cover up by all my sins that i couldn't see and feel and understand.

of cos i did not cry this time.
there's nth for me to cry abt,
except for going home. HAHA.

so during ba guan zai, we also have ''qian ren chi zou da fa hui''
err to tranlate it myself,
its the chanting of mantra's fahui with thousands of pple together.
each of us would be given those buddhist colourful string.
and we chant mantras and tranfer these merits to the string.
when we finish one mantra, we tie a knot at the string.
together we would have 6 knots.
i find this thing very meaningful.
becos we chanted it ourself,
and have shifu to jia ci on the spot.
rather than taking from some temple that they claim it is.
haha.
i gave mine to ziwei because i alr have one.
my father have the one from the stage done by shifu.
and its given to lihui. haha.
she is so blessed gosh.

the whole fahui ends at around 5pm.
we helped around to pack and clean up the place.
until 6pm+?
den we went to our hostel, YWCA.
one night RM90.
is it consider cheap?
my room got 7 pple.
haha. we washed ourselves up and sleep.
i was suppose to study SS, but i dozed off.
end up not studying but slp officially.
we all slpt at 8PM and woke up at 6AM.
the floor is very hard. but i still manage to slp.
heh heh. so glad.
xinyan couldn't slp.
quite sad.
cos she would have no energy for the next day.

can i continue day 2 tmr?
this entry so long. read alr also sian.
LOL.

BA GUAN ZHAI
1. no gossiping.
2. no killing.
3. no scandaling
4. no drinking of alcohol
5. no theft
6.no sleeping on high or soft bed
7. no using of nice smelling stuff on body.
8. no dancing, listening to music or watch tv

*no eating after 12 noon
8:43 PM

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