Sunday, February 26, 2006 ++
i dun wanna stay at home every sunday night.
i wanna go out with my parents.
but im not allowed to.
all because of common tests.
but its just common tests lor.
why cant i do something that i really wanna do after studying?
is it really THAT important?
i mean. it is important.
but i just wanna do something that i really wanna do.
just to reward myself.
ok lah. keep me at home, i'll still study but its juat AWHILE.
doesn't make much difference. boohoo!
my dad understand.
he ask me '' u all very scare of your mummy is it? always listen to what she say. and never really listen to what i say''
hahaha.
i told him its because u dun usually bothers abt my results because u know that i know how to plan for myself.
not that mummy doesn't trust me. just because all mum tends to be more concern abt it.
so what i can do is just to follow her advices and whatever she wants me to do as much as i can.
as for this time, im obeying not totally because its common test week.
but because i dun wan mummy to have more stress because of me, to worry abt me.
she has more things to do.
im here not to give her problems.
but to let her at least have something to feel proud of,
to let her know that im here to repay her kindness.
to let her feel that life is never a regret.
mummy. i know u are worried. but do understand that i know what i am doing.
i plan for myself.
i know what is right and wrong.
i know what to do at the right time.
u need not get angry because of us.
smile and stay happy.
just like that,
u'll definately find it more worthwhile.
=)
as for now.
i just have to stay at home and study.
and as much as possible,
stop thinking abt the place they go,
whats is happening there?
and what have they learn this time. 7:42 PM
Wednesday, February 22, 2006 ++
dun be sad lihui.
there's always a way out in everything.
but if u feeling like crying, just cry it out.
if u need a hug, just tell us.
we'll always be there if u need us.
really.
stay strong!
we are your supports.
there's always obstacles in life.
just climb over it and everything will be fine.
dun give up.
talk to your parents.
make ur stand clear.
im sure they'll understand.
u need not put on that smile in school if u cant.
it will make ur life more terrible.
not trying to tell u to have the gloomy face everyday.
but show ur emotions if u cannot take it.
its a very big deal to u now.
to us too. 10:50 PM
Tuesday, February 21, 2006 ++
thinking day parade today.
i woke up at 5.20am today ok!
reached school at 6.10am!
den mr goh forced me to sit with him for his breakfast. LOL.
no choice since im early.
suppose to meet at 6.30am. but to set better example,
reach earlier better than late.
so.
it's the real parade this time!
our total strength doesn't look that small afterall.
HAHAHA.
everything went so so so so smoothly.
THEN!!
i zao sia!
WHY????
how idiotic can it get man!
people down there is laughing ok.
so saddening. it just went off like that.
hais.
one part wrong sounds like everythings not alright. esp when its the last part!
no more glory for guides then.
athena had her hand down before that command.
worst than me.
in the end it was the sec 4s that cork things up.
well done to the rest of the girls!
haha. at least nobody is going to get the 50 pumping.
except whoever i dont know. jenifer says so.
hahahahha.
haiya....
some people laughed when thay walk passed me.
thats super duper irritating and saddening.
boohoohoo!
heh heh.
only the colour party is cool today!
whee~ 10:09 PM
Monday, February 20, 2006 ++
HAPPY SWEET 16 ziwei!
yay!
finally its your birthday.
16 yrs old means
u're able to watch NC 16's movie.
just remember to smuggle me in ok?
i look forward for that day to come. hahaha.
16 yrs old also means
its GCE 'O' level year!
whee~~
my sister wants u to find a boyfriend soon.
she loves u alot huh.
love to vandalise my organise just to communicate with u.
so idiotic.
den u call her da jie like nobody's business too. lol.
like jenifer. my sister seems to be adopting younger sisters.
chey. she enjoys talking to them too.
heh!
went to temple ytd.
it has been 1 mth since i last went.
well, it seems that if u look at somebody in a different angle,
that person doesn't look as bad as u think.
huiru shifu is so so so nice!
hahahha. if i nv mention to anybody before,
just before CNY, i lost the temple's backgate's key. =p
i was searching for it everywhere.
but im sure i did not bring it out of the temple.
ya. so ytd i asked huiru shifu in this super guilty tone whether the key has been found.
lol. although its not found, she's replied so nicely to me.
but she say she's changing the lock.
the backgate is those metal gate in those shop houses.
whereby u pull it down from the top.
that kind of lock is so tedious to change.
aiyo. this the like the ever first time im so careless when working at temple.
hahahahhaha.
she's just so nice lah. hahahha. =)
so is huixian shifu. LOL. i can never leave her out.
L. O. V. E.
The definition of love in Buddhism is: wanting others to be happy. This love is unconditional and it requires a lot of courage and acceptance (including self-acceptance).
This definition means that 'love' in Buddhism refers to something quite different from the ordinary term of love which is usually about attachment, more or less successful relationships and sex; all of which are rarely without self-interest. Instead, in Buddhism it refers to de-tachment and the unselfish interest in others' welfare.
and i've just receive a news!
my cousin is going to be a father!
im going to be a yi yi again.
hmmm. ITS AH WEI GOR GOR'S BABY!
OMG. i wonder how the baby is going to look like lah.
ah wei gor gor.
he's very nice to me ok.
always bring me out for supper.
lala zian. our favourite. hahahahha.
btw the baby is made in KOREA.
LOL!
hey i shall give the baby a christian name.
so cool. since malaysian seldom have a christian's name.
i shall make this baby special.
and this new baby will be the 2nd baby i love.
1st is rand rand obviously. lol.
rand is still the cutest ever other than me.
hahahahahahahahahahahahahahhaha! 7:53 PM
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adam khoo's workshop.
sounds boring right.
i tot it was some stupid boring thing.
with super boring pple talking to us, telling us dumb things just to make us more confident.
and making us sit in the hall for 12 hours in all 3 days.
heh heh. luckily we're in ava room with aircon.
those trainers are super funny!
i like the way they present. interesting.
esp gary and ramesh. melvin is funny too.
only danny. abit dry. i think he's trying to make it funny too.
but sad to say he still cannot make it.
i like ramesh esp. he's so dramatic.
though gary says ramesh is the ''mountain''
they higher he climbs, the colder he gets.
it means he's a totally different person from who he is in his talks.
doesn't this sounds scary?
are motivators all like that?
gary has sad life too.
he still hasn't found what he really wants to pursued.
he's confused.
he's in his mid of seacrhing.
he also said that he's wun be who is is once he step out of the AVA room.
very sad huh.
have to carry a mask with him where ever he goes.
gary told us abt life.
to know how to appreciate ur parents before its too late.
people cry. they weeped.
why?
touched?
or simply just becos of regrets?
its not too late to realise all this now.
at least u all finally knows.
my cousin says its so stupid to pay $130 just to get somebody to remind u abt all this.
but at least it reminded them and hopefully it really went into their heart.
ok im mean i know.
i laughed at those weeping sounds.
but i did try not to laugh. i tried so hard to control ok.
well, life and death.
something humans can never avoid.
its a cycle.
their message out there is to appreciate whatever and whoever before its too late.
to say ''i love u'' to ur parents before its too late.
to apologise to ur parents for whatever u have done before its too late.
to study hard before its too late.
better learning techniques.
aim for yourself.
work for ur own future.
for now, i would like to thank
my mum.
for constantly nag at me for whatever reasons.
for the cereal and bread every morning. ( though i hated it. but i still eats it. lol.)
for the fabulous meal every dinner.
and my dad.
for he's hard work to wake me up every morning.
for he's hard earned money. to feed such a daughter like me.
hahahahhaha.
of cos i feel super irritated when my mum nag at me.
i even kept on rebutting her.
and she gets really mad.
but i still lose in the end.
i can never win. LOL.
currently im learning to digest what she says.
and stop my stupid mouth from rebutting anymore.
hahahhahahahahahahha.
i miss enshi........... alot. suddenly.
hahahhaa. 5:52 PM
Sunday, February 12, 2006 ++
haha. im suppose to be at kovan hub doing CIP,
some pop balloon thingy.
but nobody's going. so im not going too.
but i bet all those enthu pple from our class are all there.
they very. no class spirit lor.
hahhahahahahhaa!
my class spirit means if half of the class not going, den all dun go lah.
always like that.
but who cares. haha.
if the teachers not happy den too bad.
cos today is yuan xiao jie.
we have reunion dinner blah blah.
all our excuses. haha.
talking abt yuan xiao jie, which is the last day of CNY.
so fast! so fast lah.
haiyo. how i wish everyday day is cny.
so fun.
no need to study.
got alot of food.
so many pple at home.
blackjack! even though i dun play.
if even better than holidays!
rand rand advanced himself to K1 when he's only 4yrs old!
so clever lor.
he say nursery very boring.
and my cousin got 6 points for o'level can.
my family's scholor.
so clever. but so idiotic.
of cos im happy for him.
but those adults always like to compare results.
so irritating.
so pressurising lah.
haiyo!
only if i can be as good as him.
whoa! can u imagine?
whee~~~ 7:39 PM
Saturday, February 11, 2006 ++
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO XIAOQING.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU!
HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY!
im so sorry.
i really forgot about it.
but still, now that u scolded me.
im feeling so guilty.
this means i still care.
but. im so super busy.
hahhaha. ok i know its not the excuse.
all i can remember is girl guides.
when is the stupid competition results coming out.
are we going to win?
thinking day rally.
thinking day parade.
cluster campfire.
PNA award GOLD!
den all sec 4s have workloads.
homeworks.
tons and tons of homeworks.
still not completed.
class tests.
common tests.
mid year exam.
prelim.
THE BLOODY O'LEVEL.
yesterday's meeting was so chaotic.
cant stand it.
and i kept screaming for them to settle down.
like siao woman.
SEC 1 SIT DOWN!!!
SEC 2 AND 3 COME HERE!!!
and ms quek jus come and create a scene
was so angry with her lah.
keep nagging and nagging.
say i got problem with my attitude.
say i rebellious.
crazy.
when she always got mixed up btw me and the bestfriend.
then everytime i ask her something, she says ok.
but after that i've done it, she'll say i nvr ask den go do alr.
sometimes i wonder whether does anything goes through her brain before she answer anybody.
or perhaps she's just brainless.
but she can be nice too.
so irritating lah.
my new tactic is just to say ''yes, orh. ok, can'' to her.
if not she'll never be able to get out of my sight.
haiyoo.
ok lah. sometimes im rude to her.
rude as in to raise my voice.
but if i dun be louder back,
i'll nv be able to get the message to her.
im just a student.
teachers dun usually listen to us.
ESPECIALLY MS QUEK.
u have to be louder lah.
bo pian.
that is also the reason why i always find ms chua.
she's so nice.
at least she listen and if its not ok.
she'll explain properly and clearly to me.
my favourite quote to ms quek "i tell ms chua alr''
LOL. den she'll say ''ok lor''.
hahahahahahahahahhhahhaa.
how wonderful.
xiaoqing: sorry to keep u waiting the whole day. sincerely saying sorry. 12:33 PM
Thursday, February 09, 2006 ++
hahahahahahhahahahahahahahahhahahahaha
hahahahhahahahahahahhahahahahhahahaha..!
the sec 2s all passed today too!
whee~~
though they made more mistakes than the sec 3s,
but overall, they still manage to get the flag up nicely.
the sec2s had improved alot!
now they can produce straight arms, not fully locked yet.
but its ok. i make sure they can do it by tmr's meeting. haha.
walao. somebody is trying to psycho my cousin lah.
no way is she going to do that man.
she scares me with those friendly smiles and talks with her.
as if they were BESTFRIEND. LOL.
how can somebody just BESTFRIEND with another person within like 1 hr++?
god. she's scary.
im not going to be the devil that stops them from becoming BESTFRIEND.
cos by doing so, im called the ANGEL not devil.
im like saving her life.
her whole 4 yrs in guides. LOL.
how wonderful am i?
very wonderful indeed.
one day i might jus get that person to shut up and listen to me.
rather than letting it to boast and boast abt it's whatsoever.
its as though it is the greatest animal on earth.
and no other human beings can ever be better than it.
the human beings kept quiet not because we're not as good as it.
but because we dun think we shld bother at some animal boasting abt how well it is using the animal language to communicate with the world.
hahahahaha.
OMG. tmr the o level results will be out!
this means that its my turn next year.
this also means that all the seniors are coming back.
including some scary creatures too.
oh my god.
thinking of it freaks me out.
im not going to sleep on the same date, same time, NEXT YEAR! 9:20 PM
Wednesday, February 08, 2006 ++
the sec 3s.
they did me proud.
all did so well for the flag etiquette.
esp my dear meiyu!
hahahahhahahahahahha.
so happy to see her clearing the test.
well at least the eugenia LAU was quite impressed.
they're my creation ok.
hahahahhahahha.
they're better than our batch.
when we have to keep redo-ing.
everybody redo dont know how many times.
i rmb that i always cant stop right infront of the flag pole.
and my flag got tangled on top.
so irritating.
its so funny thinking abt it.
but its not mainly our fault.
we didn't even practise before going for the test.
for the person who used to be incharge of us:
maybe its because u dun have enough time?
but pls lah. since u alr know how limited the time is.
blah blah.
the only problem with sec 3s are that they are so lack of self-confidence.
i tried testing them. haiyo.
so disappointing
they all passed! but most of them thinks that they'll fail.
seriously lah sec3s.
u girls always look so confident infront of me.
in the sense that u all told me to have EARLY STEP DOWN
when u girls were so enthusiastic in doing EVERYTHING.
u already look so confident in taking over guides.
BUT. it all becomes so different when i ask it straight into ur faces.
sometimes i wonder.
are u all trying to be humble?
i mean u should know where u stand at this momenta alr.
i want to know the truth.
and u all should be truthful abt anything thats has got to do with guides,
TMR IS THE SEC 2s TURN.
SO OH MY GOD!
LOL.
im scared for them.
probably nobody will fail.
ya. nobody will.
the future of bowen guides?
it all depends on u girls...... 9:38 PM
Monday, February 06, 2006 ++
can u imagine?
how idiotic someone can be
to even not have the common sense to do simple things right.
so super pissed.
basic drills and timing also cant get it right.
i dun understand what are her brain, ears, legs and hands are for.
brain esp!
haiyo.
making me mad lah.
i mean if u know u're not good enough to take the test,
why not put in more effort to practise it?
rather than keep huh-ing when u're told to practise.
everybody is waiting for you.
just you.
haiyo.
but if this girl is going to do everything fine on the test day itself,
i'll hug her and say ''i love u so much. thank you!''
LOL.
maybe i shouldn't just blame her for it.
those pple that left gg didn't even set the basic strength for them.
i just feel so glad that im the 1990s baby yeah?
not the 91, or 92.
whee~~
well, if this is so, the more im not going to give up.
create a miracle!
i believe so.
hey no! im not the lucky ones.
im in the batch with knowledge passed jus simply for 1 yr......
the rest of my days in guides..
i dont know. doesn't look good.
but i read the whole handbook! LOL.
and initiated the courses found from ggs website.
the juniors below are the ones that hasn't get things right!
doesn't this means im going to get everything start right from the beginning?
gosh. yes i am.
then they are the lucky ones?
eh this is so unfair lah!
but at least we go for those courses. if not.....
i might just sit there and cry.
hahahahhaha. 8:08 PM
Saturday, February 04, 2006 ++
haha!
im having fried carrot cake now.
yum yum.
actually thinking abt it,
this packet of carrot cake shld be consider healthy.
doesn't it?
it consist of carbo, protein, some vitamins and fats.
somemore it taste so good.
isn't this complete enough? lol.
carbo: carrot cake itself
protein: egg
some vitamins: carrot! and the sone green green garnish.
fats: the oil.
sometimes it burns off ur fats too.
if u put alot of chilli inside.
GREAT enough? hahahahaha.
HAHAHAHAHA.
this is the eugenia's logic abt carrot cake.
hope u people enjoy it whenever u eat it.
ITS NOT FATTY. LOL.
=D 1:33 PM
Thursday, February 02, 2006 ++
today is such an exhausting day.
was so tired.
so tired that i dozed off 3 times during the 20 minutes physic test.
when i didn't complete the paper yet.
feel that my eyes are swollen
and cant open it properly.
eyelids are so heavy.
when i slept at 11.30pm last night ok.
only during a maths when i kept on blabbering and singing all my nonsense songs again.
sadly nobody wants to bother about me.
all were so concentrated.
and i failed 2 of my diagnostic test out of 5.
people says they've got no time and i agreed.
the fact is i cant do the graph thing too.
but who cares lah. haha.
feeling crazy.
so many things in my mind now.
all the tests are like poping out all together.
so many events for guides.
thinking day, campfire, and still struggling to bring up the whole unit
of cos to keep ALL the sec 1s intact too!
cannot let WW laugh at.
hahahhaa.
but campfire alone is taxing enough according to what we've talked abt today.
then! i was also reminded that we have o level chinese in june.
as well as the campfire on late june.
hmmmm.
i hope i wun die on the spot.
*cross-fingers*
god i cant imagine how monforts scouts will look like.
haha. are they
fat? thin? tall? short?
cute? ugly? smart? dumb?
strong? weak? gay? egolish?
whoa!
its so embarrassing to shout commands so loudly
and it goes out of tune.....
infront of the badminton players.
damn. grr. 8:29 PM
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