Sunday, September 02, 2007 ++
HERE GOES THE GRATITUDE.
i was looking through for this particular post i wrote during june last year.
and here is goes
feeling touched.
feeling happiness.
feeling excitements.
feeling eagerness.
feeling with hopes and tears.
whoosh!
im simply speechless.
all i can say is,
thank you!
thankyou for making me believe.
thankyou for making MY impossible a possible.
thankyou for answering my calls.
thankyou for changing my life for a better.
thankyou for accepting me.
thankyou for your compassion.
thankyou for your teachings.
thankyou for bringing me into where i am.
you simply make me feel.....
WHOA.
thankyou.
yes.
indeed im feeling exactly like that now.
EXACTLY.
i felt it.
im really grateful for it.
:)
and as i scroll down my june 2006's archieve, i saw this.
life has been so hectic.
not only me.
my dear nonsenseS and jenifer as well.
we were so busy preparing for campfire.
so glad jenifer is here this time.
miss chua kept emphasizing that the sec4s had step down and we're going back as volunteering now.
when the school only says cca STAND DOWN.
jenifer is so funny.
she says we alr stand up now. lol.
but ya. after enrolment, which is on the first week of july,
we'll step down automatically without her telling.
gosh.
time flies.
looking at the sec1s now preparing for the performance,
it reminds me of ONE LOVE
such a bad memory.
i was a very quiet pony-tailed girl then. HAHA.
i was just sec1 the.
following seniors aimlessly.
well i dunno why i didn't had the thought that guiding was boring.
i just follow.
people rarely notice me.
sec2.
i got to know mellissa and perlyn.
nura too.
and i soon got very close to mellissa.
had a wonderful times with mellissa.
it was the most emo memory i ever had.
we had lots of jokes, shoppings, neoprints, guides, detectives, and sorrows together.
we quarrel and had arguements(basically everytime we're together) HAHA.
mellissa changed my life drastically.
i became more talkative.
and i make ALOT of noise.
of cos, i had a better times in guides since i talk alot.
my sec2 life is basically about me and mellissa.
but as time comes along, we soon grew to have our own life.
quite sad thinking abt it now.
sec3!
the most horrible and terrible part of my life in guiding.
no. i should put it this way,
it is the START of all everything now.
thinking abt those times.....
tears would flow out automatically.
i was given my FIRST time to be incharge of something.
which is the thinking day banner competition 2005.
we did not win.
but i started to know about our internal structure.
den i was called to help with admin stuff.
all i know was to help ms queck sort her things properly.
get consent forms right.
no other intention.
i didn't even know what-so-ever CL thingy.
den comes A confronting me..
so many times.
claiming stuff.
siding B.
i've got no problem with B that time until A's confrontation.
no no. actually i just felt that B is lazy and irresponsible.
but it was merely just a thought.
i did not backstab or what.
MANY MANY things happen.
so many that i dont know myself.
until oneday a grp of pple told me when we were chatting.
it was very sad indeed.
when it comes to sec4.
i tot my life would be slightly better without those pple.
but waves and hiccups come one after another.
i wonder when will it stop.
perhaps soon.
very soon.
i always thought of doing my best.
give what i can.
do how much i can do.
just for the name of bwgg.
i didn't expect myself to receive comments like those.
it makes me feel as if im working for nuts.
i tried...
but....
fairytales have good endings.
why cant i have it too?
oh well.
that was basically some guides stuff in the past.
looking back through at these, it made me feel as if i went through alot.
haha what kind of life was that? i dont know.
all i know is they are parts and parcel of my memory.
the different stages of my life.
the joy.
the sorrow.
the stress-ness.
the bitter.
the sour.
i miss guides. 7:51 PM
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